Saturday, August 13, 2011



I'm blogging to myself. Cos i need something to write all my feelings.
And this blog, nobody knows the link. At least i know i'm safe here.
Everything shall be kept to myself. Nobody else♡.

I feel so fucked up. I really dont know what i should do.
I love him, but is like, everything i do is trying to stop me from being with him.
I cant control myself anymore. Getting fed up easily, trying to push my luck everytime.
I dont want a quarrel, but i just cant stop myself from being so fuck -'-
Why am i like that man. I want to change myself ):
Everytime i ask sj dont so petty, dont like this, dont like that.
He never complain. But why cant i change myself instead?
Srsly if i'm him, i'd rather breakup with this fuckingqianbianbitch la.
I'm too self-centered. I love him and i can never express it.
I'm always complaining things about him, what about myself?
I always want to be the best, but it turned out to be the worst.

Everytime when i see pictures of his ex, you whoever whoever, i was thinking,
WHY DID HE EVEN CHOSE ME?..
I'm so fucked up and they're so much better than me in terms or either looks or personality.
I am never the best. I must be grateful that i have a wonderful boyfriend.
WAIT, NO. There must be a curse in us. MUST BE.
Isit the curse or isit me? I'm always the cause of the quarrel.. right?
Its always jealousy, and me being petty etc.
ITS ALWAYS ME. I dont want things to carry on like that.
I love him but i dont want quarrel, dont want troubles from parents.
Simple love, can?
Maybe being together isn't the correct choice afterall.
Can the time stop? I need a break.


Sunday, July 17, 2011


(this picture was taken on my birthday :p)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THIS CUTE BOY :D ( but i'm cuter :p)
ITS 17TH JULY. YOU MUST START CELEBRATING YOUR BIRTHDAY ALRE BBY.
BE HAPPY ALWAYS.
DO YOU EXPECT A BOMB TMR? O____O
SEE HOW! :D
AND AND TMR YOU'LL HAVE YOUR CONDOM HEHEHEHEHHE.
HORNY BBY.
WEAR IT OKAY.
OMG THIS IS SO EMBARASSING :P
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I'M SO EXCITED FR YOUUUUUUUU :P
IDK WHYYYYYY :P
YOU'RE BATHING NOW RIGHT? HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH :P
HOPE YOU HAD FUN WHEN PPL WHACK YOU JUST NOW :D
I CANT IMAGINE YOUR CONSTIPATED FACE AGAIN :P
AIYOOOOOOOOOOOOO I SO SIAN NOWWWWWWWWW.
FASTER BATHE CAN ANOTTTTTTTTT.
ILUVU BYEBYEEEE :D


Friday, July 15, 2011



currently in school using ianwongjiahao's phone to blog.
Now is eng lesson, ppl outside having oral, we in class watch movie.
Now is index number 6th's turn for oral, THAT MEANS NEXT ONE SHOULD BE ME Ö
Fuck :(
BUT NO OMG!!! Teacher skipped my turn HAHAHAHAH OMG DAMN HAPPY :D
So now continue blogging and don't want return ian phone :D

imy.


Thursday, July 14, 2011



LALALA!
I AM OMGLE-ING NOW.
SO FUNNY OMG. HAHAHAH.
YOU PPL SHOULD TRY IT OUT.
www.omegle.com
DAMN FUNNY HAHA.

This post is scheduled so ya, repost now :/
don faillll, want post 'i am a dog' but FAILLLLL. NOOOBBBB FAILLLLL!!!!
k bye ._.


Saturday, July 9, 2011



HELLLOOOOOOO.
I FINALLY CAN UNDERSTAND THOSE LESSONS IN CLASS.
MWHAHAAHHAHAHAHA. I have to study harder alre ^_____^
Aiyoooooooooo, i now watching tv, texting nigel that fatty, and facebooking :D
And i've got nothing to post ^______^
NIGEL TANNNNNNNNNNNN, CAN YOU HELP ME POST MY BLOG IF YOU DW IT TO BE DEAD? ):
But its alre deaaaaaaad ):
Kayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, i got nothing to post srsly.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE T_T


Friday, July 1, 2011


Hello :) . Hmmmmm today normal sch day, after sch went to eat with usual ppl. Nat nigel charissa and me. Then went class to do geog, after that meet miao and yuhan, went to dk what expo there watch asean something. Then reached home at around 11. Haisssssssss. Sucha sad day :( . Actually okayokay oneeee :( . But hais, someone lied to meeee. Post status about me then he said no :( . LIAR. Then after that like 9+ say want sleep, in the end do math, go facebook till dk what time laaaa. LIAR. Hello bloggers, ans me something, would a girl hate their boyfriend for nothing? No right?! Seeeee, wtf tsk itz going 12 and i wanna sleep. Really sleep. Bye.


Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Hais,someone here,think she not going to blog today
So i help her blog,i too kind already,hahaha,i even bought tissue from a blind man :B PARTLY because i need it,and cause im kind :B
Okay,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BEVERLYFOOXINJINNNNNNN,14 years old liao,and im like still 13 .____.
nevermind,1 fine day i will be 14 too :B
Kay,byeeeeee


Monday, June 27, 2011



k the post I wanted to delete is gone so save effort :p
currently now in bus using ian's phone to post mwahahahahah :p
training is abcgefg tired! For me.
My knee like injured like that :(
tian ah na li ke yi jiang dui wo :(

Wednesday iz my bday!
Got training-.-
great can forget bout my bday already-.-


Thursday, June 23, 2011

):
Ppl want sleep then let them sleep la. Force them to text for what.
Selfish bitch. Only think about yourself. He's your boyfriend yet you still treat him like that.
What he said was right. He's already trying to be nice yet you still push your luck.
bitchbitchbitchbitchbitchbitchbitchbitchbitchbitchbitch.
Yes, you, Beverly.


Hi blog. Not really in the moooodddyyy. But well, LIFE STILL GOES ON!
At first thought: "yay, today gna rot at home, w/o phone. (as i've turned off my phone)"
BUT! Leeching called my house phone and said that she'll be coming over!
Super touched. Cus she'll always be there for me! :)
She's like, my 24hour boyfriend hahahaha!

Just quarreled with my grandpa and sister. And i realized how childish i was-.-
Just give in and everything will be fine but no, i didnt. Hais.
I'M SUCHA SPOILT KID. ):

Like my facebook "about me" section says:
Love me for who I am,
Hate me for who you think I am.
The old me is dead and gone.
I'm moving on now.


Wednesday, June 22, 2011

HELLOOOOOOOOOOO, FINALLY UPDATING! :D
AHAHHAHAA, this blog only got nigel at there zibi stalk only,
so idk what to post. Ahahahah :p .
Holidays, haihao la~
Got er, yp camp, and go out with leeching, don, and nigel (forgot when ._.),
and go kl & gentingz, and class bbq, and meet geraldine they all,
and maybe going zoo tmr.
The only thing diff from other holidays is that no training for meeeeeeeeee.
Then friday they going to have what graduation thing, i dont think i going too.
And friday NV ppl tell me my sch going have match against their sch :/ .
Andddddd, jabez told me going to have match againts their sch too!
BUUUUUTTT, no team mates from my own team told me-.-
Forget it. Ahahahahhaa.

K YESTERDAY IS ME AND FATTY'S THIRD MONTH. :p
Then meet leeching and come my house instead of him :p ~
Then later he coming my house downstairs :p
He told me he playing pool with don now, owning him.
Don't know isit he kena owned anot :p
HAHAHAHAHA.

K errrrrrr, still got what more to post. Errrrrrrrrrr.
K maybe removing cbox!
Cus it's dead and advertisements all damn irritating laaaa ):
K byeeeeeeee ppl :p
WHO IS THE PPL? T___________T


Friday, June 3, 2011



time pls rewind, things, pls go back.
Wts, sometimes when i think back about things, i hate you so much.
Then think diff things, i love you so much.
Is like, happy now, and next minute angry.
Why is there so much things to think.
Complicatedddddd.
I just want to lead a normal happy life but it seems impossible for it to happen.
I should stop thinking asshole things.
I love you.



&> Asking you to quit smoking = treating you as dog? Why must you think this way. Your thinking is awesome. I DO NOT TREAT YOU AS MY DOG. I TREATED YOU AS MY BOYFRIEND. THINK. THINK PLS THINK. You dont expect me to ask you to carry on smoking do you? PLS. THINK.


Thursday, June 2, 2011

Everytime say ppl bitch, slut. I knew it will be my turn someday. And ya, fine. Im a bitch, a slut, TO YOU. Judge me for all you want. I dont give a fucking damn anymore-.- . At first felt apologetic. Now feel so irritated and fucked up. Trying to find small little things to pick up quarrel, whats the freaking problem with you. I dont care anymore. Not anymore. Finally felt angry rather than sad. But the feeling is ten time worse. YOURE TOTALLY AWESOME LA WTS.


Tuesday, May 31, 2011


Hellooooooo. Going camp for 3 days, dont miss meeee .______.


Friday, May 27, 2011




Morning first lesson, English lesson, watched an awesome movie. Watch halfway, pe lesson. Played badminton woohoo :) . Then after pe is science lesson. Watched finish the movie. Then, school end. Went to hub, eat mac. Then took taxi to Yck stadium. Till 5+ then went to meet Geraldine till like 6+? Then took Mrt home with them. Ö


i thought you wouldn't text me in the morning. Cus i said, 'yes' in the morning and 'no' at evening. At 10+, i nearly gave up. But you texted me at 11+ Hahahaha. Can things go back? Somehow awkward today. Ö


Sunday, May 22, 2011


Heyyyy.
Yesterday is awesome. Cool much.
Went to meet ppl at amk hub at around 12+.
Went to East Coast. Slacked for an hour plus.
Ride Family bike.
Then went to issac's resort or something.
Rested there. Sleep. Chat.
Then went eat.
Retarded Don and Nigel at there competing who eat more.
Hais~
Then went Beach.
Likeashiok.
Birthday bash for issac and ah heng.
Played with sand.
Played truth or dare. (nobody is playing actually.)
Sleep on sand.
So shiok. Hope i can spend a night there next time.
The awesome thing starts :) .
Mother called and ask me to go home.
I said 10pm then go home then she kpkb :)
Then complain to father, father call me.
Scold scold scold, say what wait for him to go home and he will deal with me.
Say what, want cut my hair. Likeadog.
Idw go home. Always threaten me. -.-
I cried. Why the fuck did i cried-.-
Hais. ):
So many ppl saw me crying. Most unglam thing ever ):
Somemore I look like shit when i cry ):
Actually planned not to go home.
In the end still went.
Cus my sis say my father won't talk me anymore. I was so fucking happy.
Nigel, charissa, don, belle, kenny, issac, ah heng, and zafir?
Pei me go take taxi. Belle went home first.
Felt so bad wasting everybody's time ):
After that only left me, nigel, don and charissa.
Took taxi home with them.
Reached home at around 12+ .
My fucking fuck father cb dog.
Scold scold scold. Waste my fucking time.
My sister still bluff me say he wont scold me talk to me or whatever.
Fucking dog. Talk to me then hold my face like going crush it like that.
Then push his hand off then he go hold my hand like going crush it also.
Struggle much. -'-
Then still pull my hair then bang my head to the fucking wall (Y).
Harder pls. Not pain at all :) .
Mother cried alot yesterday. Orbiqueck.
Aiya actually i also cried alot la. Waste my tear.
Everything ended at around 2+ .
Went to sleep~
Morning or rather afternoon, woke up at around 3pm+
First time sleep till so late.
Actually got tuition. But skipped.
Ate late lunch, watched tv, then use laptop.

Aiyaaaaaaaaaaaa,
conclusion, I hate my family
And specially thanks to Don, Charissa and Nigel.

Don> Pei me, talk to my sister or mother on phone.
Nigel> Pei me, gave me the hug i always wanted when I'm down.
Charissa> Pei me, always. Talked to my mother and sister, concern and care, my bestfriend.
Xiexienimen.

And my father threw my fucking phone yesterday.
Now it's in pieces again.
but now it's a fucking iphone-.-

thanks dad. you're awesome. always. that makes me so fucking hate you. :)
thanks to you, i don't feel like coming home. you never fail to make my day an awesome one.
violent dog. go and fucking jump down building die. i'll be the first one to celebrate if you're dead.

I've got no phone again, yay-.-
But lucky i smart, take sim card with me :D .
So monday going take phone from Charissa and can use already.
Dad say will cut off my line.
I will buy a new sim card soon :)

Dad say will find my friends and PLAY with them.
Play? Go on la, old dog.
Deal with them? Come deal with me first la.
Kill me la dog :)



Friday, May 20, 2011



Hellooooooooo. :)
Fuck people, fuck.
I failed Chinese, geography, science an maths :)
English I think passed? And pass lit. :)
This is awesome. I think I am officially banned for basketball. -.-
Thanks for my stupidness. Now left what, history only? Don't need see the paper also know fail la.
Handed in art today. Weexin help me do oneeeee<3
Can see that she don't want me to fail art that's why. :)
She is awesomeeeeeeee.
Then hmmmm today, after school, went meet geraldine with cassey char and Nigel.
Went sengkang. :)
Then er went punggol end.
Hot like abcdefg-.-
But after awhile then not hot liaoooooo. Ö
Then want sleep, cannot sleep.
Hot and mosquitoes and ants all come to me.
Yay I'm soooooo attractive. :B
Then went to play sand. Then take pictureeee then go back compass :D
Went to eat Mac. Full like shitz now I swear.
Stomach painnnnnnnn.
Shouldn't have ate so much :(
Ohhhhh, and I almost fell down at Mac there. Fuckkkkkk. :(
K posting this cus Nigel don't know die to where liao, never reply message. Ö
Hmmmmmm. That's all for today :D
Xiexie shou kan :D


Ohhhhh. And thanks to CHARISSA NG CI MIN for the blog pictureeeeees :D
:B
And thanks CASSEY MARIE JOHN for the vodkaaaaa :D

And thanks NIGEL TAN SHO JEE for the hearts :B
Didn't fold it? DONT SHY LA :B


Wednesday, May 18, 2011



Basketball training will be starting soon and I'm very sad.


Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Fucked up.
you're having fun while I'm here still mugging over the problem between us.
why? i guess i've found the problem in us. finally.
i'm always the one losing here.
what the fuck is wrong with this.
same ending?
the "for the time being" feeling came back.
scared now.
why am i sad. i should be happy cus you're so damn fucking happy playing pool?




Soon, I guess?...
:'(


Monday, May 16, 2011



Must we always end chat this way?
I'm sooooooo disappointed. :(
Remember to throw it after it ends?
When will it end? Soon?
Fuck.
Fuck life. Screw life. Cb dog life la-.-


Sunday, May 15, 2011



I can't belive I fainted just now-.- 
For a sec :B 
Walk walk walk halfway, then suddenly idk what happened I only know my head knock my father door then I lie on floor-.-
Fucking pain now la my head.
Dont know got blueblack anot :(
Hmmm. 
K later going meet Charissa and issac at tpy. :D 
Go gymmmmm. Heheheh. 
Cus we going run at sports carnival so need train -___-
and I damn long never run le cus no traininggggg. 
Muscle become fats. Wooohooo :D 
Kkkkkk. Errrr. 
Monday will be rotting at home ya. 
Tuesday need go yck stadium, dk for what. 
Wednesday start school alreadyyyyyy. 
Wednesday, another slack day in school :D 
So can continue wear my short pinafore :B 
After Wednesday maybe wear my longgggglongggggggg pinafore le lohhhhhhhhhh. :(

Hmmmmmmmm. Errrrrrr. 
Freaking scared of results. Cus I know I confirm fail alot-.-
NOTHING ELSE TO POST LE LAAAAAA FML. 
Byeeeeeeee theeeeeennnnnn. :D





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。My name is Beverly, I'm 14 years old after 29june'11.
Studying in Anderson Sec. Imma spoilt kiddy.


。Basketball is no longer my passion.
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