Saturday, August 13, 2011
I'm blogging to myself. Cos i need something to write all my feelings. And this blog, nobody knows the link. At least i know i'm safe here. Everything shall be kept to myself. Nobody else♡. I feel so fucked up. I really dont know what i should do. I love him, but is like, everything i do is trying to stop me from being with him. I cant control myself anymore. Getting fed up easily, trying to push my luck everytime. I dont want a quarrel, but i just cant stop myself from being so fuck -'- Why am i like that man. I want to change myself ): Everytime i ask sj dont so petty, dont like this, dont like that. He never complain. But why cant i change myself instead? Srsly if i'm him, i'd rather breakup with this fuckingqianbianbitch la. I'm too self-centered. I love him and i can never express it. I'm always complaining things about him, what about myself? I always want to be the best, but it turned out to be the worst. Everytime when i see pictures of his ex, you whoever whoever, i was thinking, WHY DID HE EVEN CHOSE ME?.. I'm so fucked up and they're so much better than me in terms or either looks or personality. I am never the best. I must be grateful that i have a wonderful boyfriend. WAIT, NO. There must be a curse in us. MUST BE. Isit the curse or isit me? I'm always the cause of the quarrel.. right? Its always jealousy, and me being petty etc. ITS ALWAYS ME. I dont want things to carry on like that. I love him but i dont want quarrel, dont want troubles from parents. Simple love, can? Maybe being together isn't the correct choice afterall. Can the time stop? I need a break. |
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